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Courage Under Fire
The idea came from a visit to the War Museum in London when I was a teenager, and my older brother had dragged me along with him. While he meandered, eyes wide, gawking at the weapon displays, I found myself almost in tears reading accounts of outstanding acts of bravery performed by soldiers awarded medals of honor in WWI.
Many years later, I remembered those stories and my reaction, so while Courage Under Fire is a work of fiction with names, characters, places and incidents either a product of my imagination or used fictitiously, the inspiration came from a real event.*
Courage Under Fire
Eddie clutches at wisps of his dream. Summer. His ma smelling of babies and herbs. He shivers, curling hedgehog-like into a ball, something he did when he was small after Da came home and battered anyone who said anything he took umbrage with. Even those harsh childhood memories appear rosy compared to what he is encountering now.
‘Time, lads.’ The sergeant’s heavy hand taps Eddie’s shoulder before moving along the trench. For such a big man, his movements are tender. The mercy of the hangman for the condemned.
Eddie pulls the coarse blanket up around his ears to keep the freezing cold at bay. The need to empty his bladder forces him to move. While he waits his turn at the latrines, the stink of feces mixed with quicklime curls up his nostrils, filling his mouth and belly with nausea. At least he’s not seen Jameson’s face for a few days.
Eddie thrusts aside the memory of his field punishment: tied to a gun wheel two hours a day for eleven days—awarded for a brawl started by Jameson. He won’t forget that in a hurry. After returning to his position, he finishes his bully beef and biscuits before sipping the cold tea that tastes of turnips. He relishes the rare moments of quiet before the day’s action.
‘You ready?’ his mate, John, whispers.
Eddie nods.
Both kneel. ‘Our Father who art in Heaven. Hallowed be thy name ...’
Eddie glances up and down the line. Most have put their rifles aside, and a gentle murmur rises as, with eyes shut, minds turned inward, they pray.
‘No one is an atheist when the bullets start flying,’ John had told him once. ‘Then everyone prays.’
The ack ack ack of enemy weapons knots Eddie’s guts, the fear familiar. Training kicks in, and he grabs his Lee-Enfield, checking the bolt-action mechanism, the ten-round box magazine, cartridges, cylinder and bayonet.
He dismisses the seditious whisperings, appearing daily now. But they return. The bastards move us like pawns while they sit far from the front line. This is just a game for them. It’s not their guts being smeared into the soil. But if you question, hesitate or, God forbid, lose your wits, your own side executes you. He clenches and unclenches his hands, feeling the cold metal of his weapon against his palms, as he remembers Willis, a private condemned to death as a traitor after walking away from the battlefield, stunned and in shock. Jameson had volunteered to be on the firing squad, but it was the contemptuous sneer on his face as he aimed his rifle at Willis that sticks in Eddie’s mind.
‘2nd Battalion,’ the sergeant growls, ‘move up the fire steps.’
The men surge up the rough ladders lining the wall and fling themselves to the ground. The angled top protects them as they lie on their stomachs.
Eddie tenses. There’s nothing that equates to warfare. Before the action, adrenaline primes you. You lie motionless, but alert, poised, every sense heightened. Each sound you hear draws a response from a nerve somewhere in your body. You don’t dare think this might be the last few seconds of life, because if you did, you’d remember your loved ones, and lose the hate you hold on to because you need it to kill.
He stares out at No Man’s Land. If he half closes his eyes, he can almost believe he’s with his Da in Chelmsbury Woods; an early morning mist creeping along the ground, frost nipping at his fingers, and cold seeping into his bones as he lies concealed in bushes, holding Da’s old rifle and waiting for a rabbit or squirrel to happen past.
The earth shudders as a barrage of artillery pounds targets, and choruses of mortar detonations swell to a deafening volume.
‘Fire’ bellows the sergeant.
Eddie raises his head, scanning the area; he aims and discharges his rifle. Bullets scream through the air. Empty the magazine; reload and fire. Again and again.
The Huns are too distant to distinguish individual features, but close enough to see rows of steel helmets and glinting bayonets.
Eddie pauses, rubbing his numb fingers. Something catches his eye. He squints. ‘Look! There! Isn’t that Housby? ’ he mutters to John.
Housby had fallen too near enemy lines for an attempted recovery even under darkness. That was two days ago when they tried—and failed—to storm their adversary’s position.
Sure enough, where Eddie is pointing, barely distinguishable from the churned, frozen sludge, John sees a brown-gray lump twitch. “You’re right, lad.”
But Eddie’s up and moving.
'Hey! Eddie! Stop! You can’t save him. They’ll shoot you,’ John yells after him.
Eddie doesn’t stop, keeps racing forward.
'Cover him, lads!’ John orders.
Eddie moves in stops and starts; bent, scuttling crabwise, he scuffles sideways and forwards, his heart pumping so hard he thinks it’ll rupture. Then he trips, and his face smacks the earth as shells whistle by far too close to his ear. The wounded man groans; Eddie scans the injured soldier and realizes he’s not Housby. It’s Jameson.
More shells detonate.
Eddie freezes. What if John’s right? What if he doesn’t survive? The thoughts crowd in, and he can’t control the violent temors running through his body. Oh God, I don’t want to die out here in this freezing hell of muck and mud. Ashes to ashes and dust to dust. Not yet, dear God. Please. Why am I risking my life for that rat Jameson? Have I come too far to go back? Then he hears Ma’s voice: ‘You always got to try, Eddie. All you got to do is try.’ He seesaws. Should he save himself? Or try to rescue Jameson?
He makes a scurrying, scampering, mad dash toward the prostrate man, ignoring the incessant shellfire and shots screaming past. Somehow, he reaches the fallen soldier. He crouches and sees black blood oozing from Jameson’s wounds. ‘Jesus, you’re a mess,’ he whispers.
Jameson whimpers as Eddie heaves him up onto his shoulder.
Balancing Jameson’s weight, trying not to breathe in the smell of festering wounds, Eddie locks eyes with the Boche soldier facing him, not twenty feet away.
The young, blue-eyed, dirt-smeared lad, who couldn’t have been a day over sixteen, if that, has him in his sights. But he’s frozen with fright. This must be his first battle.
And Eddie knows that look. Once, out hunting with Da, there’d been a deer, a creature whose grace captivated him. Eddie recalls the soft innocence in the animal’s eyes as it looked up, sniffing for danger—oblivious to death’s approach. Da, impatient, snatched the gun from his hand and, with one sharp shot, secured enough meat to feed his hungry brood for a week.
Eddie winks at the German lad and grins through cracked lips.
The youngster manages a stiff nod.
But Jameson is heavy. The same as the deer Da had forced him carry home. A full-grown doe is a heavy weight for a thirteen-year-old boy, and twice he fell. Da stood, his expression hard, and watched without helping each time Eddy labored to rise. It took an hour to walk the mile to their cottage. Afterwards Da made him skin and butcher the animal while he sat and smoked his pipe. But Eddie’s committed. No-one is going to butcher Jameson.
Incoming Howitzers whine and lights flash as they strike their targets: excruciating cries echo from both sides as heavy mortar rounds find soft flesh which explodes outwards. The sound of aircraft overhead adds a deeper bass growl to the awful cacophony of battle.
Eddie recognizes that not a single shot from behind comes anywhere near them. They are blessed; their return a miracle.
John scrambles out and rushes toward them. Grabbing Jameson’s arms, he lowers him from Eddie’s back and together they half-carry, half-drag the unconscious man to safety. The three of them slide in a tangle of limbs into the trench. A rousing cheer erupts from the men, who, hardly believing what they’d just witnessed, had expected Eddie to be killed at any minute.
‘Bloody fool!’ barks the sergeant as he takes Jameson off them. Carrying him like a babe in his brawny embrace, he moves up the line, throwing more words over his shoulder. ‘You’re a bloody fool, Eddie, but a bloody brave one!’
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Thank you for visiting my blog and reading the story. You can find my books and audiobooks on the relevant pages (click on the tabs at the top of the post) and I also publish on the following platforms:
Substack: bit.ly/3RDtTHh Medium: https://medium.com/@teagankearney1
To read about the fearless soldier who inspired this story, visit Wikipedia and seach for Abraham Acton.
Stay well, stay safe and keep reading.
Best wishes,
Teagan,
FYI: I have published previous editions of this story under the title, Eddie's War, but I flashed on this new title this morning, and it just fit a whole lot better. 👍
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Interview with Monica Nash: Narrator of The Serendipity Game Audiobook:
I was
born in Reading and grew up in Berkshire where my parents taught at a boarding
school. I come from a large family and was very fond of climbing trees, cycling
and playing endless games with my sister and our large collection of dolls. For
the most part I enjoyed school, particularly English, Art and History.
2.
Did you always want to be an actress and what drew you to the performing arts
as a career?
I was always in school plays and loved
performing in general as a child, but for years my great passion was ballet. I
loved the music and the costumes, but most of all I loved the storytelling. It
was as a teenager that acting took over as my primary interest. I knew then
that I wanted to act professionally, and never seriously considered any other
career.
3.
When did you first perform and where did you train?
As an
undergraduate studying English at the University of Bristol, I was heavily
involved in the drama and music scenes. Later, I went to Bristol Old Vic
Theatre School, where I studied for two years. My first professional acting
jobs were in 2014.
4. Who are your influences?
I have drawn inspiration from
many people over the years, from family members to school teachers. My greatest
professional influences have been certain members of staff at drama school,
and, more generally, actors ranging from Samantha Morton to Emma Thompson to
Joyce Grenfell. I am influenced by any great piece of theatre that I see.
5. What do you do to prepare?
It depends on the project but
generally speaking I jump straight in with the script, and do any research that
needs to be done as I go along.
6.
What are your strengths as an actor and how do
they contribute to the style that makes you unique?
I have
always been confident with language, and my English degree has been an enormous
help to me. I am good at spotting the rhythm of a line and knowing how to
deliver it effectively. This is useful in both comedic and serious roles, and I
always try to be a performer who can pass seamlessly between comedy and drama
at the drop of a hat.
7.
What fears/anxieties do you have about your work?
Actors
always worry that they are not getting enough auditions, and I am no exception!
In this line of work, financial stability is never guaranteed, so that is
sometimes a concern. I am also worried about the way this industry has
historically treated women, although I do think that it is improving.
8.
What has been your greatest accomplishment as an actor and what impact did that
success have on you?
My
greatest achievement is that I am still working and making my living in this
industry six years in! Probably my greatest specific achievement was
successfully learning to walk on stilts, from scratch, in only six days, for a
theatre role. It definitely made me more confident about learning new skills
and gave me more faith in myself that I could rise to a challenge.
9.
How does recording an audiobook stretch you as an actor and what was the
biggest challenge you faced in recording The Serendipity Game?
Recording
audiobooks is unlike any other form of performing since you do it alone without
fellow cast members to inspire you and buoy you up. ‘The Serendipity Game’ in
particular has a large cast of characters. Flitting seamlessly from one voice
to another was probably the greatest challenge.
10.
What did you like about Casey in The Serendipity Game?
Casey
has had a difficult childhood and has come out of it as a very independent and
spirited woman. She is loyal to her friends and stands up for herself. These
were all great aspects to bring to her character.
11.
If you had the chance to perform any role in any play or film, who would you
choose and why?
There
are far too many to choose from, but it’s probably a toss up between Eliza
Doolittle in ‘My Fair Lady’ and Cruella de Vil in ‘101 Dalmatians’. Eliza is a
richly comic part but also a nuanced character who goes on an incredible
character journey, of a kind which is hugely rewarding to play. Cruella is a
straightforward, larger than life, insane, bloodthirsty villain (with fantastic
costumes) – who doesn’t love playing one of those?
12.
Who do you look up to?
I love
the work of directors like Josie Rourke, Emma Rice and Vicky Featherstone. The
actor I most look up to, in terms of her range, emotional clarity and career
choices, is Lesley Manville.
13.
What is your next project?
I am
working on another audiobook called ‘Hello’, a psychological thriller, and I am
in rehearsals for an outdoor concert performance of Sondheim’s musical ‘Into
the Woods’, playing Cinderella.
14.
Where do you see yourself in ten years’ time?
Still
acting! Hopefully with a rich and varied CV, having made many more wonderful
friends.
15.
What do you do when you’re not performing or recording audiobooks?
I have
done various other non-acting jobs over the years. At the moment I am doing
some online tutoring, as well as writing and performing some comedy pieces for
a podcast. Outside of work, I sing with a chamber choir called Vivamus, spend
time with my family and friends, drink copious amounts of tea, and see as much
great theatre as I can.
16. What does
your perfect Sunday afternoon look like?
Probably a longish walk ending up at the pub followed by
watching a movie on the sofa with friends.
If you want to find out more about Monica you can contact her via her website: https://www.monicanashactor.com/
The Serendipity Game: A Sneak Peek
That was two weeks ago, and I'm thrilled to let you know The Serendipity Game, an entertaining, drama-packed love story will be released on the 14th February - Valentine's Day!
When hard-working office temp and part-time barmaid Casey Jonson attends a party hosted by billionaire Jake Leinster, little does she realize the irresistibly attractive stranger she hooks up with is the man himself.
And here's a peek at the first chapter:
Amazon: https://amzn.to/2ShhLvO Kobo: https://bit.ly/2OzHLl1
Apple ibooks: https://apple.co/2SnN2xo
Have a great week, be kind to others and to yourself and keep reading.
Best wishes,
Teagan.
Healer's Magic on Audible!
'Healer’s Magic’ is Book One in the 'Kala Trilogy'.
"An interesting concept ... great energy that whisks us along...genuine and authentic." Laura Clarke, Indie Book Reviewer.
"Addicting, multi-layered story." Layla Messing, Indie Book Reviewer.
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Best wishes, be kind to yourselves and others and keep reading!
Playing with graphics
The email was about a website called BookBrush which allows authors to create images for marketing their books. The Free Plan allows 3 downloads per month, so I clicked the link and spent a happy hour clicking buttons and experimenting. You can view the results below. I'm not a professional, although, I use Adobe photoshop for my book covers and for my ads, and I found this amazingly quick and easy to use.
Here are my results:
Special Weekend Freebies!
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